I’ve been quiet and really, unlike myself for the last few months. It’s true what they say – “everyone you meet is fighting a battle you know nothing about”. One year ago I was planning the final details of my fairytale wedding in Hawaii and today, I’m apartment hunting and canceling subscriptions so I can save a few bucks a month. Life doesn’t always go the way you plan. In an attempt to stop feeling sorry for myself and to slowly transition to the next step of divorce recovery, I decided to revamp my blog and dedicate it to choosing happy over everything else.
The truth is, once you get over the shock and anger of losing the person you thought you would spend the rest of your life with, you become miserable. The ideas you had for your future dissolve and for a while, you feel completely worthless and unable to see light at the end of any tunnel. And good luck to the people around you while you are trying to navigate through the hell that is divorce. [insert apology to all those that I have hurt or offended recently] It’s ugly. It’s embarrassing. It’s just plain sad.
And then something happens. You start to notice the people around you that are rooting for your happiness. The amazing friends that send gifts and notes, reminding you that you can get through anything; the family that plans a visit just so they can spend time with you; the sister who pushes you through when you feel like you can’t do it on your own. The darkness and gloom starts to fade away and you find yourself wanting to smile again. And you do… you do smile again.
So here’s to choosing happy. Here’s to finding that strong, confident woman inside of me and returning to a life of planning adventures and experiencing the “whatever happens, happens” side of things. I know some days will still suck more than others and that’s ok. We all deal with life at our own pace. And tomorrow is another day.